I can't help it. I cannot apologize enough for the gross delays in End of the Night but I cannot bring myself to rush the story. It has been a rough 2012 on a personal level with a lot of challenges and while I have tried to write I remain unsatisfied with End of the Night - so much so that I have considered taking a hiatus more than once. The most I have managed is a day or two here and there but even that has not helped me correct the problems I face with the culmination of my Emerald Seer Series. It just is not working the way I want it to, just not flowing readily like the others have. It is not writer's block though - strangely enough - it is more of an inability to control the tale. This last installment must accomplish so much and I am finding it difficult to reign them all in - as if the disorganization of my personal life is bleeding into my characters. Is this possible? Yes, I suppose it must be since it is happening. The worst part? I have dozens of other story concepts flittering around my brain including the sequel to my YA epic fantasy - Estelan - that is pushing VERY hard to get out of my head. Even as I read this blog post I see the lack of focus and it makes me cringe but then again, it offers a glimpse into the reality of my writing at this juncture.
Perhaps, as has been suggested by one of my beta readers, that I am smashing too much into one book. Perhaps I should take the advice and split Damarra and Roane's tale into another Emerald Seer novella. I have considered it more seriously lately and wonder if it isn't the solution I have been looking for. Decisions, decisions.
In the end I will not rush this story, I will be true to my characters, and I will force them into submission - even the ever unruly and headstrong, Storm Sullivan.
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